Wednesday, June 19, 2013
I want to be "Overweight"....
I don't share this with folks very often but I struggle with depression and these feelings of self image get strong sometimes and add to my weight-loss struggle. I'm just tired of being fat and can't loose weight fast enough. I do worry, however, if I don't get this image thing under control that I won't ever be satisfied, whether at 244 or 195, and that's a scary notion.
On the positive side, I went into the office on Monday and Tuesday after being out for several months (I'm fortunate to work for a mobile work-styles company that allows full time remote working) and it was a great pleasure seeing people's reaction. I've never had people say to me, "Wow! You look good! I've had complements before but one guy was so loud that it drew attention. It's a good feeling when this happens but I can't live on this response as it will eventually go away, and later if I don't get this response even though I know that I've lost weight, I fear that I might get more depressed and stop my progress. It did feel good though!
Does anyone else that struggles with weight have these same feelings? I would love to hear your thoughts.